Friday 31 August 2007

Catalytic Moments

I'm sitting in one of the wards at the hospital where I'm working overnight. There have been 2 caesarean births I've attended - both boys and startlingly well, and other relatively minor happenings to deal with. Keeping me on my toes, but not really a challenge. When I'm working I'm dealing with the innermost workings of people in every sense. A physical, intellectual and emotional mix that varies in it's persuasion from one patient to the next. I can connect with most of the people with whom I interact professionally and often in quite a powerful way, but in most of these connections I am really the catalyst for things, taking part in the actions, but not part of the end result nor changed significantly by the process.

I enjoy doing what I do and being a part of this process for people. But sometimes I wonder if I'm making gains myself. Is there something I could be doing better with my own life? Am I doing enough? Should I stop and smell the roses, or should I up the ante and try to achieve more?

I guess its a question I ask myself frequently. But I tend to be a bit of an overachiever, and most people think I'm doing too much already. So the correct answer is YES I should up the ante...

I just need to find a focus...

6 comments:

Sue said...

Just what do you have in mind when you say up the ante?

brenton said...

sounds like fun, i'm sure it will make for some great blog posts and some conversations over BSB meetings! B x

Christiaan Kidd said...

I think 'úpping the ante' is going in the wrong direction...

You are already 250 times better at everything than everyone else in the world.

Less superman - more mortal.

And go have an adventure ion another country for a few years and grow and expand and push yourself way out of your Coalcliff comfort zone.

Don't want to get rid of you - but I do want you to find another part of the world to conquer. If any of my friends can do it and do it well, it would be you and the Frenchman.

xx

Jessica said...

I second Christiaan: moving might be enough of an adventure to keep you satisfied for a while.

Speeding Bullett said...

I third Christiaan and Jessica. Go and share yourself with another part of the world and bring as much enjoyment and happiness you have bought to people already in your life to the unknown.
xx

Superchilled said...

If it was a referendum I'd be leaving the country!
Sue: upping the ante for me would be doing something great, better, more powerful than before - think Christiaan's superman with a supercharged boost - but I don't know what that is yet, something creative and world changing perhaps, but no supercharger whine just yet... Watch this space...